• Blog
  • About Me
  • COWAY by Liyana Aznil
  • Miswak Toothbrush
  • Party Fluff
    • E-mail
    • Facebook
    • Instagram
    • Twitter

Doodles of My Mind

by liyana aznil

Blah Blah Blah

March 14, 2009 by liyanaaznil 7 Comments


I’m miserable.

Yes. I am miserable. I miss going out. I haven’t had a fun mall-hopping-happy-shopping experience in months. Every time I plan to go out, it’d be spoiled by my bouts of morning sickness and nausea. Yeah sure, online shopping’s fun, but everything starts to look the same after awhile. Those people probably end up going to the same suppliers. I need at least another pair of “suitable” pants for work desperately, I can’t keep showing up in the only pair of maternity pants I have. At times I just feel like maybe I’ll just brave it, just drive to the mall and leave it to chance that my nausea might not come. Then I remember that with the whole nausea comes the migraines, and well, it doesn’t take a genius to realize that driving with a migraine isn’t exactly a bright idea.

I miss going out with my friends, I just want to be around some company (and I don’t mean the office), to be having a little bit of girly fun. Unfortunately my situation is rather unpredictable and I’d hate to suddenly spoil the scene with my pale-faced-I-have-to-hurl episodes. Believe me, I won’t be great company then. So then my mood turns and I feel like I don’t want to see anyone. Especially when I look like crap right now (yeah, because I currently look like I haven’t brushed my hair in ages).

I was supposed to spend my day with my best friend, but that didn’t happen. Why? Go figure.

To make things worse, the husband’s not around. Heck, I barely get to see him this month as he’s jetting off somewhere every week for work. He’s back only for a day or two before he takes off again and it just sucks. That’s because even when he’s back, I don’t have the energy to be my cheerful self and I feel like I’m such a bore and a let down. He’s away again this week, and today has been sending me pictures of his activities, feeding eagles, crossing high bridges, swimming, enjoying lavish hotel facilities, eating awesome food. Yes, he’s at work, but he manages to squeeze in having fun while he’s at it.

Don’t get me wrong, I find it great that he gets to enjoy work, the little perks that make up for all the other stress that he has to face on the job. I can’t help but feel bitter and jealous that I’m stuck at home feeling sick and miserable though. I blame it on the hormones.

I miss going on holidays. I miss traveling, I travelled a lot for work last year, and had great fun at it too. Guess everything’s all different this year. I know some of you out there are just itching to say “it’s going to be even more challenging when your baby comes, you’ll barely have any time for yourself” well blablabla, please restrain yourself from leaving such comments. I know that, I just need to vent out my frustrations I’m feeling at the moment.

I feel sad. I feel lonely. People keep telling me that I should keep up a happy attitude, that feeling sad is not good for the baby. Try having hormones that mess you up, see if you can use that as a catalyst on being happy.

*sigh*

I guess I’m not alone, I have Dot here with me. Dot and I will just go to bed by ourselves and I’ll wake up to pee every 2 hours or so and have a bout of hunger pangs around 4am and make myself something to eat, alone.

*groan*

I’ll feel better in the morning. I know I will.

Share this:

  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Pinterest

You might also enjoy...

Back to the 50s!
When you feel nothing
A complete mess

Filed Under: Baby Stuff, daily drama, expecting Dot, Life

Previous Post Dot at 12 weeks
Next Post Sunday Splendour

Comments

  1. little miss kechik says

    March 17, 2009 at 11:16 am

    oh no.. dont say that.. u make me think how m gonna be in my 8th week onwards (and until my 22nd insyaAllah).. alone.. when caveman is offshore again. huarghhhh!!! ofcourse.. by then.. i will turn to you la kan.. surely u’ll say.. been there.. done that.. hahahah!

    Reply
  2. little miss kechik says

    March 17, 2009 at 11:16 am

    oh no.. dont say that.. u make me think how m gonna be in my 8th week onwards (and until my 22nd insyaAllah).. alone.. when caveman is offshore again. huarghhhh!!! ofcourse.. by then.. i will turn to you la kan.. surely u’ll say.. been there.. done that.. hahahah!

    Reply
  3. Twiggy says

    March 16, 2009 at 2:26 am

    mommy 3+1 : seriously, you’re going to be one of my top points of reference!quiyah : thanks dear!nlnb : i never said i wasn’t thankful. i needed to vent. that is all. “embrace” morning sickness? hahahahahhaah!!!

    Reply
  4. newlifenewbeginning says

    March 16, 2009 at 2:00 am

    sabar..dats part and parcel of being preggy..look up on the bright side, Allah bagi rezeki anak to you and ur hubby, so just embrace every moment whether it’s positive or -ve and take good care of urself and dot ye…coz sometimes bile kite tgh go thru dugaan camni, kite kene ingat gak ada gak pasangan suami isteri yg teringin nak rasa ape yg u rasa (the morning sickness and all) coz die nak sgt ada anak tp tak dpt2 laie..so cheer up dear 🙂 no need to feel lonely

    Reply
  5. newlifenewbeginning says

    March 16, 2009 at 2:00 am

    sabar..dats part and parcel of being preggy..look up on the bright side, Allah bagi rezeki anak to you and ur hubby, so just embrace every moment whether it’s positive or -ve and take good care of urself and dot ye…coz sometimes bile kite tgh go thru dugaan camni, kite kene ingat gak ada gak pasangan suami isteri yg teringin nak rasa ape yg u rasa (the morning sickness and all) coz die nak sgt ada anak tp tak dpt2 laie..so cheer up dear 🙂 no need to feel lonely

    Reply
  6. Quiyah says

    March 15, 2009 at 10:08 am

    patience dear..hopefully everything would be ok soon… i believe it will.. u’re strong.. always believe that..

    Reply
  7. mOmmy of Triplets plus One says

    March 15, 2009 at 8:11 am

    dear, if u really need the outside air badly but fear tat u might spoil the mood of ur frens…go out with ur mom. coz if ur hormone gives u trouble…u can always turn to ur mom and say “lets go home”well, tat was wat i did with my first pregnancy. mom would tolerate with ur “nonsense” and afterall it’s her first cucu…she won’t mind any crap that come from you/Dot =)

    Reply

Leave a Reply Cancel reply

Hello

Hello

Welcome to the place where I pen down random thoughts and ramblings that make up my life's daily spectacle.

Subscribe to Blog

Subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Me: Yang, jom amik gambar
Him: Ok 
#thisislove
😏
FIFTEEN. This is a record for me, I've never had FIFTEEN. 
This is a record for me, I've never had this many chicks before!

The eldest hatched on the 17th of February and the youngest hatched on the 2nd of March. All the rest in betweens. 
We placed them with their foster moms yesterday night and they seem happy and content with their mamas this morning 😄
Here's Papa, with his handful youngest grandkid 😄

Needless to say, we had a fantastic weekend ❤

May this week bring all good things with blessings from Allah swt.
Maka kami, rakyat Malaysia, berikrar akan menumpuk Maka kami, rakyat Malaysia, berikrar akan menumpukan seluruh tenaga dan usaha kami untuk mencapai cita-cita tersebut berdasarkan atas prinsip-prinsip yang berikut:

KEPERCAYAAN KEPADA TUHAN;

KESETIAAN KEPADA RAJA DAN NEGARA;

KELUHURAN PERLEMBAGAAN;

KEDAULATAN UNDANG-UNDANG;

KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN

To this I hold true.
One for the memories. His very first exam and he One for the memories. 
His very first exam and he scored highest in class for Science and Math! 
Definitely caught all of us by surprise, we would've been thrilled if he just passed 😂

Alhamdulillah... Well done my Pomelo. Mommy is proud of you regardless, this is just the cherry on top ❤
My chicks' temporary home, until we place them wit My chicks' temporary home, until we place them with their mama hens. 
We've expended it to become a duplex (I cut a door in between the two boxes) and they're having so much fun hopping through from one box to another. 
Pomelo even made them a little playhouse at the side 😂
Our abang² bomba are the best! They're making th Our abang² bomba are the best! 
They're making their neighbourhood rounds to ensure that all fire hydrants are in perfect working order!! Thank you @bombattdi 😁
Eggs collected from my chickens over the past week Eggs collected from my chickens over the past week!
.
.
.
#organiceggs #thefarmlife #thekampunglife
We lost our beloved Lulu yesterday morning to a pr We lost our beloved Lulu yesterday morning to a predator.

She was Chemps' little fluff of joy.

This will be the last of our rabbits. I don't think our hearts can take losing anymore bunnies. Chemps especially... Thank you Lulu, for being the sweetest most adorable little rabbit we could ask for. We will miss watching you sprint across the garden, eat your favourite treats out of our hand and you teasing and playing around with the chickens. "I love you, Lulu" - Alisha.
Load More… Follow @liyanaaznil
This error message is only visible to WordPress admins

Error: The account for liyanaaznil needs to be reconnected.
Due to recent Instagram platform changes this Instagram account needs to be reconnected in order to continue updating. Reconnect on plugin Settings page

COPYRIGHT © 2019. Emma Theme by Lovely Confetti · DMCA.com Protection Status