Last Friday, I had a bit of a panic attack. I had some stains of blood which was not supposed to be there since I’m pregnant and all, so I rushed myself to the clinic. After doing some checking and an ultrasound, the doctor found that everything looked ok and that the baby was 75% safe. Still, I was put to bedrest and taken off work for an entire week. (ironically, I was just on the phone with Mommy 3plusOne the day before and she was telling me to take care extra care, and talked about spotting etc).
At that check up, was the first time I SAW AND HEARD Dot’s heartbeat. I think Dot’s little heart had just learned how to pump away and there it was on the screen, a tiny flicker that had me in awe.
I went home, but felt rather depressed that day. I was thinking the worst and was wondering if everything was going to be alright. Ended up crying the whole night much to my own dismay (well it was probably hormones, I don’t know). Everyone’s been so supportive though (except the one person whom I thought would be most caring about me having my first child). So with the encouragement from my dear husband, sister, soulmates and in-laws, I picked myself up and cheered myself on. I watched seasons of FRIENDS accompanied by yummy ice-cream the Babester sent over and drowned myself in hilarious chic-lit books Dillot lent me (Dillot even sent flowers and a get well soon balloon, sweet giler).
Everything was going fine and I was looking forward to my next checkup on Saturday. Unfortunately, my body decided that it could not wait till Saturday, so it gave another leak and put me into another worry session. I went to the clinic again yesterday, and the doctor wasn’t quite sure what was causing the bloody mystery. Probably my body not used to having another being inside me so its trying to fix itself up. So, doctor has given me another whole week off work and I’m starting to feel restless. I can’t do much but lie around doing nothing and even going up and down the stairs is not advisable. I guess that’s what she means by bed rest.
Alhamdulillah, Dot is still ok. Doing rather well actually and has now grown to almost 1cm, yaaayyy!!! Hahahha, I think I’m the only one with an almost week by week picture of my little Dot. I saw Dot’s heartbeat again yesterday, it’s beating faster than last week and Dot’s actually tripled in size. It..was…amazing!!! It’s like.. wow… I have this tiny heart beating inside me… I’m carrying precious cargo.. hehehe..
Unfortunately, the husband missed both viewings of the Dot’s heart but it’s ok love, we’ll make sure you’re around the next time we go for a check up 😀
So now here I am, stuck at home, in bed for another week, doing nothing. I was thinking about work and got quite worried because there are some urgent stuff to be taken care of. Thank God I have reliable team mates so I’ve been on the phone and online with them, letting them know on the details to help out with the hanging urgent matters.
Am going to go rest awhile now (doctor’s orders, rest as much as possible). Hopefully everything will be fine in the end. Do say a little prayer for me and Dot 🙂